YOU WERE GONE BEFORE WE KNEW IT AND ONLY GOD KNOWS WHY
YOU ARE NOT FORGOTTEN, NOR WILL YOU EVER BE
AS LONG AS MEMORIES LAST WE WILL REMEMBER THEE
We have lost our son. A fun, lovable young man who was only 18 years old. Jason died
alone on the street without me (his mom) or his dad by his side. We did not get to say
good-bye. We did not get to hold his hand. We did not get the chance to tell him one
final time how much we love him or not to be afraid. He was all alone. It is a loss that
continues and will continue for the rest of our lives until the day we finally die.
This website has been created in honor of our forever loved son, Jason, who was born
in Florida on January l4, 1984, and tragically and violently left this earth on July 14, 2002,
in Chandler, Arizona. His life lasted 18 1/2 years. We will never understand how life can be
so cruel. Jason said goodbye and told his dad he'd be back in a little while. Ed told him to
be careful and his final words were, "Don't worry dad I've got my helmet." And that's it.
Shortly later:
Jason is dead on the street.
FULL OF LAUGHTER, LOVE AND FUN, JASON, OUR PRECIOUS SON
THE ABSENCE OF JASON IS EVERYWHERE
It has been said time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds
remain. In time the mind, protecting its SANITY, covers them with
scar tissue and the pain lessons. But it is never gone....never gone
My heart stopped .... with yours
My breath died .... with yours
My life ended .... with yours
TEARS WITHOUT END
NIGHT WITHOUT DAY
TIME WITHOUT FORGETTING
FOOD WITHOUT TASTE
SLEEP WITHOUT REST
SORROW WITHOUT COMFORT
PAIN WITHOUT LIMIT
EMPTINESS WITHOUT BOTTOM
LIFE WITHOUT JASON
How can I tell you things that are too sad to be told,
of the helplessness of holding a child who in your arms
grows cold? Maybe you can tell me how should one behave
who's had to follow their child's casket and watch it lowered
into a grave. On that final day we placed a kiss upon that box.
But, we had to leave Jason there and walk away.
I need to know that you are okay Jason because
I am not.......
Jason is dead. It is still shocking to hear myself say it. There was nothing wrong with him.
He was not sick. He was not old. He was a teenager. How could he be dead? He was so
active, he was healthy and so full of life. He was only 18. But life did not leave him on its
own; his life was taken from him. It ended in a horrible way. He didn't just die; he was
violently killed. Even saying he was in an accident is too kind. Dead...a gut-wrenching
word. One word that can literally make me sick. We did not loose Jason - we know
where his body is laid to rest. To say he's gone sounds like he willingly went somewhere
and will come back. Well, we have lost Jason and he is gone and the fact is: HE IS DEAD.
He will not be coming back home to us. We will not see him, hear him, touch him ever
again. His life here is over, it has ended. That's it. No more. There was a past, but there
is no future. Tomorrow will not be......END OF STORY.
As long as I have memory.....I will love you
As long as I have eyes to see and ears to hear
As long as I have lips to speak.....I will love you
As long as there is time, as long as I have a breathe
To speak your name......I will love you! JASON, we love you.
NO FEAR: HE'S RIDING THE CLOUDS
A life so young released to heaven
Left on earth we wonder "why"
But some are sent among us briefly....
Some have spirits meant to fly
YOUR LAST PARTING WISH WE WOULD HAVE LIKE TO HAVE HEARD
AND BREATHED IN YOUR EAR OUR LAST PARTING WORD
ONLY THOSE WHO HAVE LOST ARE ABLE TO TELL
THE PAIN IN THE HEART OF NOT SAYING FAREWELL 
Everyday I stare up at the sky and wonder if you are staring too, thinking of us? 
LONELY IS OUR HOME WITHOUT YOU
LIFE TO US IS NOT THE SAME.
ALL THE WORLD WOULD BE LIKE HEAVEN,
IF WE COULD HAVE YOU BACK AGAIN.
THE LIGHT FROM OUR HOUSEHOLD IS GONE,
THE VOICE WE LOVED IS STILL,
A PLACE IS VACANT IN OUR HOME,
THAT NEVER CAN BE FILLED.
MAY THE GOD OF LOVE AND MERCY,
CARE FOR JASON WHO IS GONE,
AND BLESS WITH CONSOLATION,
THE THREE OF US LEFT TO CARRY ON.
A HEART OF GOLD STOPPED BEATING, TWO SHINING EYES AT REST
GOD BROKE OUR HEARTS TO PROVE: HE ONLY TAKES THE BEST
Memories
He danced through our lives,
Leaving traces of his smile
and his sparkling eyes
everywhere...
His laughter
echoes through our thoughts and dreams
everywhere...
Some times we reach out to hug
And to touch a
memory.
Our love for Him is neverending,
But has been placed in a
special part of our hearts.
WITH A WAVE OF HIS HAND, A HAPPY SMILE AND A LIFE FULL OF
PROMISE, JASON RODE OFF. A SUDDEN CRASH AND ALL IS STILL.
SHATTERED LIVES, BROKEN HEARTS, QUESTIONS WITHOUT ANSWERS.
WE CAN ONLY WISH WE KNEW WHAT REALLY HAPPENED.
DON'T BE FOOLED; TIME DOES NOT HEAL OR MEND. IT ONLY MAKES YOU
REALIZE ALL THE THINGS YOUR POOR CHILD WILL NEVER GET TO DO.
WATCH OVER US, JASON, UNTIL WE ARE ALL TOGETHER AGAIN. WE LOVE
YOU AND HAVE ALWAYS BEEN SO PROUD OF YOU. BE AT PEACE. WE HAD
NO CHOICE BUT TO LET YOU GO.
IF YOU KNEW JASON, I HOPE YOU WILL REMEMBER THE BOY WITH
THE BIG CHEVY TRUCK WHO HAD A PASSION FOR RIDING AND AN
UNQUENCHABLE ZEST FOR LIFE. LIFT UP YOUR EYES, LOOK ABOVE, AND
GIVE HIM A WAVE AND A SMILE. "LATER J"
YOU SHOULD BE HERE WITH US JASON
JASON'S ROOM
I walk past it a dozen times a day,
Sometimes pausing at the door;
It hurts to look inside; It's not his room anymore
You see our boy is dead; Only memories are there
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If I knew it would be the last time That I'd see you fall asleep, I would tuck you in more tightly and pray the Lord, your soul to keep. If I knew it would be the last time that I see you walk out the door,
and call you back for one more. If I knew it would be the last time I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise, I would video tape each action and word, so I could play them back day after day. If I knew it would be the last time, I could spare an extra minute to stop and say "I love you," instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.
I would be there to share your day, well I'm sure you'll have so many more, so I can let just this one slip away. For surely there's always tomorrow to make up for an oversight, and we always get a second chance
There will always be another day to say "I love you," And certainly there's another chance to say our "Anything I can do?" But just in case I might be wrong, and today is all I get, I'd like to say how much I love you and I hope we never forget. Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, young or old alike, And today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved one tight. So if you're waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today? For if tomorrow never comes, you'll surely regret the day, That you didn't take that extra time for a smile, a hug, or a kiss and you were too busy to grant someone, what turned out to be their one last wish.
Tell them how much you love them and that you'll always hold them dear Take time to say "I'm sorry," "Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay." And if tomorrow never comes, you'll have no regrets about today.
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When Jason was a baby, a young child, then a teenager we watched over him. We thought we would watch over him for our entire lives. We were wrong. We hope with all of our hearts that he is the one now watching over all of us.
The moment that you died, Jason, my heart was torn in two,
one side filled with heartache, the other died with you.
Remembering you is easy, we do it everyday. But missing
you is a heartache that never goes away.
Suddenly our whole world has been cruely ripped apart. No
longer can we see you smile for you are with God above. Watch
over us from Heaven, Jason, and help us through this pain. We
will love and miss you always until we see you once again.
YOU SLIPPED AWAY WITHOUT A FUSS
AND BROKE THE HEARTS OF ALL OF US
